A close encounter with a crush...(Nov 18, 1996).

Its hell being shy...


Now

I see you at work from across the room
  and wonder what it would be like...
    to go see a movie together
    and sit up all night talking
    to watch candlelight play in your hair
    and shadows dance along your brow
but its too early for that now.

I see you at the bar in animated conversation
  and wonder what it would be like...
    to wake up next to you some snowy morning
    and watch the blanks hug the curve of your hips
    to listen to the quiet sleepy breath
    and see your eyes closed in dreamy imagination
but its too soon for that now.

I see there isn't a message on the answering machine
  and wonder what it would be like...
    to have you remember we'd planned to get together
    and to think you want to be near me
    to hear you asking if I'm home yet
    and if I'd like to come over for tea
but its too close for that now.

I see you in the city with your new date
  and wonder if I should tell you...
    how glad I am to see you smiling
    and watch the lightness of your steps.
    to tell you how I feel when you look my way
    and flush when you say my name
but its too late for that now. 

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