Reliving a break up...(Nov 4, 1998).

Just had a close encounter with my ex- which lead to a self-absorded, "I've been dumped" blue funk:


How Could I?

I never decided I didn't love you.  How could I? 
I never decided we couldn't work things out.  Why would I?

But I understand the decision you made
  and had already guessed what you'd say
that you thought we were too different
  and could never meet halfway

Inside I still have a spark of flame
  and can't explain the things I feel
can't even explain why they're there
  just that they're so real

There's a lot of tired cliches
  that I won't even repeat
I can't say you were perfect
  or that you made me complete

But I miss the way you smiled
  and hate being alone
miss sharing my joys 
  being stuck facing my life on my own

I know I never compromised well
   but I did hear your frustrations
What won't bend also won't break
   my strength is one of my limitations

Sorry we can't be friends
  I guess I'm just not that mature
I'd rather not see you again
  since thinking of you now is torture

I know I still love you.  How couldn't I?
I know we can't work things out.  Why wouldn't I?

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